We Are Clean...

I was reading the passage today for our life journals and it was John 13. I noticed something in this chapter that I had never paid much attention to. Jesus is washing his disciples' feet and He speaks these words while teaching them, "And you are clean, but not every one of you.” (vs. 10.) He is referring here to Judas who will soon betray Him. And this one point stuck out at me. A few verses later, Jesus will predict Peter's denial of Him. Yet you have here, Jesus knowing what both men (Peter and Judas) will do to Him, but He calls Peter clean and Judas not. And this is what I know. Jesus saw their hearts, and knew that Peter had a pure heart, a heart that wanted to seek Jesus, but at times was weak or ill-hearted. But Judas was doing everything out of bad intentions. He had no desire to pursue Christ, only to take advantage of the situation. I know I have a pure heart in my desires to pursue Christ, and I must just learn how to cling to that fact. I will falter at times, and I will deny Christ at times, as Peter did. But I am following Him with a heart that longs to only bring Him glory, and that is what separates me from Judas. That is what separates Judas and Peter, the heart. And Jesus can see straight through ours and He knows who is sold out to Him. Jesus, may You strengthen me, and will you help me in those times when I falter to see that Your blood has made me clean, even in that moment. And may I live in that grace afforded to me, and out of that, give you glory in all that I do. Amen.

For The Record...

I enjoy knowing that some of my rhetoric might get read by other people, but I do not hang my hat on it. I post my thoughts, most of the time unedited or reviewed, on here as a way to get my thoughts out. The idea is that it might help others in some way. Maybe not, but maybe. So if anyone gets tired of my mood swings or political rants (which I'm not doing anymore,) then please feel free to stop reading my blog. It will not hurt my feelings, and I do not seek attention or get pleasure from any of my post on here. (With the exception of any post about the Indians or Gators.) So anyways, now that that is clear.

Post # 200...

I can't think of a better post for my 200th post than the lyrics to one of my favorite songs ever.
Download it and let it strengthen you.

"Dig" - Incubus

We All Have A Weakness
But Some Of Ours Are Easier To Identify. Look Me In The Eye
And Ask For Forgiveness;
We'll Make A Pact To Never Speak That Word Again
Yes You Are My Friend.
We All Have Something That Digs At Us,
At Least We Dig Each Other
So When Weakness Turns My Ego Up
I Know You'll Count On The Me From Yesterday
If I Turn Into Another
Dig Me Up From Under What Is Covering
The Better Part Of Me
Sing This Song
Remind Me That We'll Always Have Each Other
When Everything Else Is Gone.
We All Have A Sickness
That Cleverly Attaches And Multiplies
No Matter How Hard We Try.
We All Have Something That Digs At Us,
At Least We Dig Each Other
So When Sickness Turns My Ego Up
I Know You'll Act As A Clever Medicine.
If I Turn Into Another
Dig Me Up From Under What Is Covering
The Better Part Of Me.
Sing This Song!
Remind Me That We'll Always Have Each Other
When Everything Else Is Gone.
Oh Each Other....
When Everything
Else Is Gone.

I Am So Lost...

I have no one to talk to. Even God it seems like...I'm too far away...my heart is too far gone. But I opened a bible about an hour ago, and this is what I found:

One of my favorites:
"When a man's folly brings his way to ruin,
his heart rages against the Lord." - Proverbs 19:3

"Listen to advice and accept instruction,
that you may gain wisdom in the future." - Proverbs 19:20

"Cease to hear instruction, my son,
and you will stray from the words of knowledge." - Proverbs 19:27

And here is my other favorite:
"Many are the plans in the mind of a man,
but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand." - Proverbs 19:21


Good stuff to reason with the soul. Good stuff to make me feel a little alive. This really sucks right now, I just want to go destroy something...I'm not, but I want to. It's silly I know, but I just can't get my thoughts out of my head. I need someone to argue with, to tell how much this whole thing is pointless and a waste of time, and how there is no cure for it all. And then there's that element of the unknown that you can't argue with. I'm just not sure how to handle it anymore...I'm just not sure.